long time no post!

Well I always say that I am back but then I go off and forget my password! I know I'm a retard but hey it happens.. Life around here has been pretty good so far last week we had VBS and it was great we had 41 the first night and then it kinda went down in attendance but it was still great! I had the job of music and man I'll tell ya one thing that is a work out! lol But it was such a joy to see the kids join me in singing and the motions and their faces light up when we get to sing their favorite song further in the week it's just such a joy! This year I think that we did something that I have never seen but anyway we had each CREW come up and have a part in the closing ceremony and including the little preschoolers. They had the theme song and oh my word it was so stinkin adorable I mean did they do all the motions no but they sure tried! Their parents loved it and they had fun and that's all that matters right? Moving on... one of my biggest pet peeves is this I had a lady that obviously knew me but I had no idea who she was and we were standing there in wal-mart talking and she proceeded on to tell me that she loved her kids very much but she thought that she was tired of being a mom. Seriously how can you be tired of being a mom! I have been a semi mom like figure to my niece and nephew for years and sorry if anyone should be tired of it then it should be me! Do I love them well yes like they were my own siblings or something but that does not make them my own kids and well I am tired of it sometimes but I keep going with everything cause I know that is the best thing for them! Children are the biggest sweetest sometimes patient testing gift from God and if the people that God gave to them is tired of having them what are the kids to do when they have no one! It just breaks my heart!I just really don't understand that and I guess I never will I just have to keep praying that God will change their hearts and will just give them a love for their kids that no one can do but God. I know that I have to pray a prayer everyday that God will give me the strength to help these kids that I have living with me that I can parent play and love them to the best of my abilities and not just scream and yell at them cause they don't deserve that. But I will tell ya it's not the easiest at time cause they are either fighting interrupting or something to the extream. You still gotta love them anyway! I was telling a friend of mine that school can not come back soon enough and the summer just started. WE have sceaming yelling fighting children that I think that when we ask them to stop they just get a TON louder to see how much they can push out buttons! HMM... don't push my buttons cause I will get the paddle and I will spank you! Rylee has started coming back with "well I don't think it will hurt" do you guys know how bad I want to just go get it a wear his little bottom out just to prove that I can make it hurt. I just bite my tongue and tell him to stop or the swimming pool is not gonna happen for two days that he will have to stay home with the grandparents and the rest of us will go to the pool! You wanna kid to straiten up then you tell him that he can't do something he loves to do! SO you see I guess the good that comes outta all of this is that I am getting a head start on my parenting! lol I think that I'm done with this post! Enjoy lol