MEXICO!!! :-)

Sometimes the right decision can feel like the wrong decision and the hard decision can be the best decision that is how I feel about mexico! I loved what God did there and it was very hard to leave! I met some amazing friends there that I brought back with me and people that I just well... You catch my drift! On Sunday we were told that they have only had at the most 12 kids in their VBS and the first day we had 66. IT BLEW OUR MINDS oh man and God moved in that first day.. The next day I got put in charge of the youth class! It was like walking a dog it was so easy but there was this one girl that could not understand a word that I was saying.. But I kept going like nothing was wrong that day that night and the next morning I prayed like my life depended on it, The reason I prayed so much is that on Wednesday it is what I have always heard and called it Salvation day. I prayed that God would break down the language barrier down so that She could understand what I was teaching because of the seriousness of what I was teaching! Long story short I get done I prayed the sinners prayer and asked if they felt like God was talking to them as I prayed then to say it in their hearts. Then after I said amen I had everyone that said the prayers and wanted to ask more questions then to stay and talk to me, and guess who stayed and talked to me.. Yep that's right the girl that on the first day could not understand anything that I was saying without someone translating what I was saying to her. I was BLOWN completely away I mean i know prayer is powerful but WOW I was just amazed at how faithful God was in this situation. I was not only Praying but I know each and everyone of you that was back here was prying to. God does amazing things when his people pray! We ended the week with a total of 78 people in VBS God was amazing I know I keep saying that but I can't think of any other way to put it! I started with 6 youth in my class on Tuesday and on Thursday I had 20. 20 youth in that class haha they made fun of me cause I was so excited about how many people were there! This is probably the hardest mission trip I have ever been on. Saying goodbye to these people was so stinkin hard it's not even funny! God moved and god lead me to a group of some AMAZING friends. I am very glad that God gave me the chance to go on this mission trip. God showed me on more tan one time on this trip that HE was in control and I was not! I hope that when I start saying God i got this on my own he just kinda looks at me and says UM.... HELLO DOWN THERE I'M IN CONTROL!!! lol Thank you guys for all of you prayers they were much appreciated.. There are so many more stories that I can tell but being on skype with a wonderful friend that is saying Gabby that's long I prolly should end it here!! lol

In his service
Gabrial

long time no post!

Well I always say that I am back but then I go off and forget my password! I know I'm a retard but hey it happens.. Life around here has been pretty good so far last week we had VBS and it was great we had 41 the first night and then it kinda went down in attendance but it was still great! I had the job of music and man I'll tell ya one thing that is a work out! lol But it was such a joy to see the kids join me in singing and the motions and their faces light up when we get to sing their favorite song further in the week it's just such a joy! This year I think that we did something that I have never seen but anyway we had each CREW come up and have a part in the closing ceremony and including the little preschoolers. They had the theme song and oh my word it was so stinkin adorable I mean did they do all the motions no but they sure tried! Their parents loved it and they had fun and that's all that matters right? Moving on... one of my biggest pet peeves is this I had a lady that obviously knew me but I had no idea who she was and we were standing there in wal-mart talking and she proceeded on to tell me that she loved her kids very much but she thought that she was tired of being a mom. Seriously how can you be tired of being a mom! I have been a semi mom like figure to my niece and nephew for years and sorry if anyone should be tired of it then it should be me! Do I love them well yes like they were my own siblings or something but that does not make them my own kids and well I am tired of it sometimes but I keep going with everything cause I know that is the best thing for them! Children are the biggest sweetest sometimes patient testing gift from God and if the people that God gave to them is tired of having them what are the kids to do when they have no one! It just breaks my heart!I just really don't understand that and I guess I never will I just have to keep praying that God will change their hearts and will just give them a love for their kids that no one can do but God. I know that I have to pray a prayer everyday that God will give me the strength to help these kids that I have living with me that I can parent play and love them to the best of my abilities and not just scream and yell at them cause they don't deserve that. But I will tell ya it's not the easiest at time cause they are either fighting interrupting or something to the extream. You still gotta love them anyway! I was telling a friend of mine that school can not come back soon enough and the summer just started. WE have sceaming yelling fighting children that I think that when we ask them to stop they just get a TON louder to see how much they can push out buttons! HMM... don't push my buttons cause I will get the paddle and I will spank you! Rylee has started coming back with "well I don't think it will hurt" do you guys know how bad I want to just go get it a wear his little bottom out just to prove that I can make it hurt. I just bite my tongue and tell him to stop or the swimming pool is not gonna happen for two days that he will have to stay home with the grandparents and the rest of us will go to the pool! You wanna kid to straiten up then you tell him that he can't do something he loves to do! SO you see I guess the good that comes outta all of this is that I am getting a head start on my parenting! lol I think that I'm done with this post! Enjoy lol

WOO..

So since it has been almost a month since I blogged I thought it was time to blog again! I have been a busy little bee like normal trying to finish up everything in the house and get my grandparents moved into their house! We had so many little things to do b4 that could happen it was crazy! but after a whole weekend of moving WE are now in the kitchen and they are in their house! I seem to think that my mom thinks that it's funny i guess to move things when I work so when I come home and want something then I have to go on this huge search to find things! NOT FUNNY I say but they all think it is funny! My poor 3 year old niece knows where more things in the kitchen then I do. It has taken a LOT to get the wonderful kitchen that we have now but I LOVE IT we have all the space in the world. We don't bump elbows and we are not in each others way it is so stinking nice! We can all be on the same cabinet and still have enough space to move! If you have ever cooked with me you know that I am a kitchen and space HOG cause I want space and I am MESSY man i tell you what I am a good cook (not on my soap box) and I am messy! My grandpa always said that a messy cook is a good one so I guess that's the case. So the thing I want to tell you is that I LOVE OUR NEW KITCHEN!!!!!!!!!!!
Thing #2) I have a dear friend that tried for my infusion last week and I fully warned her that the first time she gave it to me she had it easy! I really don't think that she believed me! UNTILL this time when she could not find anything! I couldn't help but laugh and in my head say I TOLD YA SO I TOLD YA SO LOL!!! but I have to say that no matter what happen she was a life saver and I will call her again to let her make the call of "do I really want to do this again?" SO again I say Thank you to this dear friend of mine! Thing #3) I have been falling away from God lately and yes I will admit it cause I try not to lie ;-) but I have and no I don't like it but things have happen to get me to this point. As much as i would like to tell everyone the whole story I don't have near enough space to put that on here but I will say that Sunday. Bro.Dewey was and still is outta town preaching a revival and so yes we had a guest speaker and he was AWESOME. He put things into perspective for me like no one else could! and taught me things like I was a child in Sunday school again. They were the sweetest and uplifting people and like no matter what they are going through in life that it's never as bad as it seems. I only wish I could look at life that way, I mean I can say that when life gives me lemons I can make lemonade but that's easier said then done at times. I was very refreshed again and reminded that. Gotta love when God uses people like that! I think that's all I got tonight! Nighty Night!

A dear dear friend.

So this will be short sweet and to the point! I just want to take a second to tell you about my amazing friend Amanda Shook. We GO WAY back but thats not what i am going to tell you I want to tell you what a blessing she has been in my life! God has truly blessed me with a Godly role model of a friend! We have been through our ups and downs of course but she still has me sticking around! One of the things that I love about her is her love for God and she is not afraid to show it it just up lifts me in so many ways! I also love how we can go months maybe even a year or so but when we get back together it's like we never left! God knew what he was doing when he put us together! I also love that in a situation she is calm and fully relay's on God it just blows me away! I love her like my sister and I thank God for her every day!

The life story part 1

So I had someone ask me why I just talked about what was going on and not how I got here! well here it goes.. From the beginning first i am 20 years old and I AM NOT A MOTHER, I cannot tell you how many times I have been asked that and here is why! My sister I sick she has to many diseases to name and there are times that she cannot take care of her children so my family stepped into the place for the time being, it is not easy can tell you now but to make sure that the kids are taken care of I do it anyway. I won't tell you that I don't complain cause it is very hard at times because I have to give up things in my life that I don't want to have to give up! You may ask like what, well I have to give up my time and my energy or sleeping in at times and going most places by myself. I have to make sure that there will be here to take care of them if I have to go to work and that is not the easiest thing in the world. Most people see me at the park in a eatting place in wal-mart or so many other places and just look at me and say what an adorable daughter that you have and instead of going in the explaining of it all i just shake my head and say thank you or have Eden say thank you and move on. I have worked at M.O.P.S for three years and people that know my sister and that see me twice a month still look at me and say Eden you're mommy did such a good job picking you're cloths out they match you're eyes. It makes me laugh to myself cause they think that she is mine hehe I know I should not laugh but it is just so stinkin funny. I have friends that laugh at me when i go over to see them and they have kids and they say Gabby why come over here I have small children just the same as you at my house. I simply come back with the response that you actually take care of you're children and I know that when i come over there that I won't have to take care of children. Yes that may sounds harsh but it's the honest truth, I would just like to say that I am 20 years old and would love to just be able to come and go as I please but that is impossible with two children at my house! Granted I don't bathe them all the times sometimes yes nor do I put them to bed cause my mom does that cause she is usually working when they come home or she is busy cooking dinner or something of that line but I do have Eden 95% of the time. I don't really want people to read this or talk to me and feel sorry for me cause that is not why I am blogging this or I talk to people, here is why i am blogging or talking to people about this. First I am blogging about this cause someone asked how it was that a 2o year old acts like a 30 year old and is why patient and good with kids most not all but most children trust me I have my times that I don't think that I will make it through some sitting jobs that I get. Man I had this one last year that i thought I was going to loose my mind. all you that think that I am so amazing with kids should have seen me those days lol but I made it through and it made me stronger didn't feel like that at the time but it sure did. Please don't get me wrong I loved that little boy with ever ounce of my body it was just really hard to handle him at times. Second of all I talk to people about it cause if I don't then I will surely suffer from insanity laugh if you please but if you have ever been in a vent session with me you will know exactly what I mean not to mention I would probably be in a hospital somewhere because stress. I feel that sometimes stress is killing me slowly but surely and it's weird. I had a lady tell me oh Gabby you are not dieing from stress, well I may only be 20 but stress could still kill me if I let it run my life. I love love love my niece and nephew if i didn't then I would not put invest as much time and effort into making their lives, I want to see them succeed just like I would want to see my children and will see my children do. Again don't get me wrong I am making myself sound like I don't have a short temper at times or I yell at them or my mom or my sister but I do I can't tell you how many times I lost count I am human that's what happens. I am by no means perfect but I know you guys knew that! lol I was just thinking that i have started my life story from the end and I will go to the beginning.. lol oh well in this I have got some amazing friends that will sit and listen and then either give me advise or say goodness I don't understand why they do this to you. A very wise man told me what does not kill you makes you stronger well I am not really for sure what more I can handle without breaking it's hard to keep you're head up when you feel that you're life is in well pieces. that is a different part this is only the past few years! That is all i think that I have on this one stay tuned for the last part.

So one of my friends once told me

that MnM's were better were when you put them in the sun all day and let them get mushy and gushy ! I have to admit that she was wrong. I like mine hard not melty and since that it has bee cold and snowy they can't sit up and melt maybe sit up and FREEZE and then you might just break a tooth when you go to eat them cause they are frozen. I know Gabby where is this all coming from well here it is . Today eden was eatin Valentines MnM's and that was not suppose to be in the house due to us trying to loose weight but yet there they sat, they were actually suppose to go to M.O.P.S Wednesday but due to SNOW they are sitting in my kitchen just a callin my name . she for some odd reason put them under our really cool yet fake fire place in the living room and when i went to check on her I asked her where they were and she said under the heater and I said WHY and she said bobo so I don't have to chew them! That's right so she does not have to chew them how very smart but yet very stupid also i then informed her that you could not do that cause they would make a HUGE mess. It did do the justice in making me laugh uncontrollably.. and now my vent about the SNOWW I mean I love snow as much as anyone else but I am tired of it . it has made it's pretty self appear and it's time for it to LEAVE gahh I am so ready for one child in the house all day so there is no fighting,screaming,punching,hitting ECT. ECT. but yea life is so much easier with one child in the house all day. Not to mention the house building has come to a screeching halt due to the contractor and his son can not make it because of the SNOW I can't take anymore of being told that I am fat when i go to eat because that is not the right kind of food to eat insert BLAHHHHH. I bite my tongue so I do not hurt anyone's feelings , I am ready to move out and get to where I won't have to worry about what I say or due cause my roommate that does not wear her feelings on her sleeve! Don't get me wrong I love my family to death i just need to have my own space and time. Granted I do get that time when the kids are in bed and i get to go listen to my music and play my words with friends/or my new found favorite game Angry birds but still I would like that time during the day Dude I am 20 is that to much to ask for? Or when I would like to go see my best friend in Van Buren that I have not seen in going on 2 months then i could just go. I'm crazy right ? i am asking to much right? I mean would going to see her for a night and a day kill someone? I don't think so I mean she is a school teacher so goingt o see her week is kinda not possible! So what brought this all on is that I have been snowed in with 9 people for 12 days! Going insane I think so!! So i beg whoever is praying for snow PLEASE STOP!!!! :-)

I want a nick

So I know that the title sounds a little weird but here is the explanation of that! Just for the record if he finds out that I posted a blog ALL about him he would killllll me I mean seriously! Ok so to tell you a little bit about him, Nick (nicholas) is one of my absolutely favorite paramedics EVER!!! We have known each other for about 5-6 years! I know not that long but well it has yet to come! Nick started out as my sisters friend but with our bleeding disorder paramedics become my friends also! I will admit that when I first met hijm I had a HUGE crush on him but as our friendshipish kinda thing went on then i had a crush on his manners again he would be so embarrassed about this. anyway he has those old fashion door openin respectful amazing what I have always wanted guy! you don't see this much anymore hence the I want a nick.. So anyway I think that I will set out for a guy like that!! Well kinda I mean I don't a guy that miss treat me and that does nothing but treats me like crap and I really just want a guy that loves me for me and I don't have to change! I wonder if for Valentines day I can get my nick! lol I know this was short but just what was on my mind