life as i know it!

Life as I know it is this! There is 9 people living in my house and there is construction going on in the back! My grandmother has it out for me and none of my other siblings and I am disrespectful lazy and I will NEVER get married! You will be sitting there saying oh she does not have it out for you but it's sooo true! I swear every time that I come up from up stairs she goes GABBY you need to come and put the cloths up hmmm there is two other siblings sitting in this room and they can come and at least put their cloths up I mean really. they just sit here and do nothing! sometimes they will come get their cloths up but usually it's just me! So of course I bite my tongue and go along with it like it is no big deal! This is only the first thing on my mind. The next thing is that I am almost 21 and have never NEVER NEVER been on a date EVER yea crazy right. I know yall are sitting there saying don't rush it just wait but no offense but I think i have been more that patient I mean really 20 years that's crazy yea I have not been under that pressure but now I am kinda thinking that I would kinda like to go out for valentines day and maybe like once a week or once a month. I hear everyone that gets to do that and for the first time in my life I am jealous cause for the first time in my life i want to one good thing in my life! I feel like everything in my life is bad and it may not be a huge deal but It's something that I want to try so I can say no it is not worth it. Yea it may be hard but ME I want to try it just once! come on I got cop brothers that can take care of it if it gets to bad. And when I say take care of it i mean be there to pick up the pieces! lol not to mention I have like the best friends in the world I mean I feel like all I do is vent complain and then expect advise and they listen and then give the best that they have! Amazing right I know God has blessed me with Amazing friends. I have a dear friend of mine his name in Nick Henson one of my favorite paramedics and we well were talking about what i wanted to do with the rest of my life. Did I want to be a massage therapist for the rest of my life and i said well Nick idk really I know that I love kids I;m good with kids and I have ALWAYS wanted to be a nurse idk what it is about it but I really have always wanted to be a nurse and so then we were talking that I could do whatever I wanted to do! Then he told me I really don't think that I will ever forget it and it was " The only person that can tell you that you can't do it is you're self" I had to think about it for awhile but it finally hit me that yea family support will always be nice but as long as I have myself believing in myself and that I can do it and no it will not be easy but I CAN DO IT!!! Thank goodness for those people in my life he is such a blessing in my life it's not even funny! We laugh cause everyone thinks that I had a crush on him but NOPE I had a crush on his manners. That might sound weird but you don't see the kind of manners and the respect that he has of women offen any more. I love him dearly and he is a very good friend I know that he would do anything that I needed him to do need be. God has sent me trials but God has sent me oh so many blessings also! That's all i have for you guys for now mainly cause my hand is cramped up! another post very soon I love you guys much


Gabrial